I still have days where I cannot believe I'm a mum of two. Let alone a mum of an almost 3 year old and a 13 month old. I remember writing this post when Parker was a month old, just a few weeks into life with two under two. It's been a whirlwind of a year since then, and I've definitely grow a lot as a mama, and as a person. And bloody hell I've learnt a hell of a lot too!
Having two is wonderful. Parker gave his first smiles to Indie, she's always got his back, and they always have someone to play with. Of course it's not all sunshine and roses. There are days where I want to pull my hair out and run far far away. These are usually the days where Jack's been at work all day, and Parker is teething though (and chocolate does usually help).
So what have I learnt from being a mummy of two?
There will be jealousy...
Luckily Indiana didn't really show that much interest the first few months. Where she was on 20 months old it just became her new normal, and she embraced the change. The bigger Parker got though the more we started to notice it.
What I was not expecting though, was to get the jealousy from Parker. He is most definitely a mummy's boy, and there have been plenty of days where all he wants is me. If I'm giving Indie attention, he will actually come over and scream and moan until I put her down!
You can't do everything...
The first few weeks I definitely tried to be supermum. But I soon realised something had to give. Keeping the house tidy wasn't top of my priority. As long as the kids were happy / fed / clean then it was a good day.
Of course the older Parker got the easier it became (double nap time is still my saviour), but there's definitely still days where my house is an absolute mess!
Babies are all so different...
Indiana was your text book baby. She slept through at 5 weeks old, was never really clingy or whingy (she's making up for it now, I promise), and all in all, was pretty easy. Then Parker came along. And it was hard.
It felt as if we were learning everything all over again; he was just so different. We've co-slept with him, cuddled him to sleep and have thrown out the routine plenty of times. Everything we said we wouldn't do with our first. You have to find what works for them.
I remember being Pregnant with Parker, and wondering just how I was going to spread my love. Honestly though, it just comes naturally (or it did for me anyway). From the second he was born I felt the same rush of love. My love is split equally between them both. And if we did have another, I know it will just do the same again.
Basically, what I'm trying to say, is that it will be wonderful, stressful, amazing, sometimes even terrifying...
But whatever it is, just seeing your two beautiful babies together, will be the best feeling in the entire world.